I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. There are 2 things in my life right now that are pretty big and I kind of want them now! I've been praying about them and doing research on them and...nothing. The only thing that keeps coming up is patience. Now for me, normally, this is not a hard thing. Just about everything I've had to wait for. But these 2 things I've been waiting a long time for. I don't know if I've just been waiting long enough that "I" feel like it's time or that other people around me are getting them and I'm not and I just think it's not fair. I don't know. I'm sure it will all make sense in the end but for now it's driving me NUTS!! The kids got their CD from church a little while ago and it's the only CD I play in the car now. Maybe I need to put what I want in the Lords hands and know that whatever is suppose to happen will happen. I guess this is a big test of faith, patience, trust and endurance. I haven't ever wrote anything like this before but it's such a big part of my life right now that I have to vent to someone...or something, even if no one reads this. It feels good to put it out there.
PS...I'm not going to say what the things are until they happen, so don't ask. :)